I’m sitting here in Tullys (a coffee shop) in Ueno, contemplating on how to write this, or express what has been happening for me in the last few months alone. There are so many aspects to how God has changed me since 2017 started, that I don’t think I could express it all in one blog post.
I don’t want to speak empty words, and I don’t want to over-elaborate what God meant to be simply put.
I’ll begin with Romans 14:8
“If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.”
Before this year started, I was full of anxiety and fear, always worried about what others thought about me. I was terrified of making mistakes, and being caught in the act of messing up. It drove me to suicidal thoughts, and a feeling of emptiness.
I hadn’t realized what putting God first meant, and, like many others, continued to put what other people thought of me first. I was worried to the point at which I couldn’t move.
Only last night did I realize what it truly meant.
Putting God first means you are choosing the narrow road, a road that very few want to follow.
Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it –Matthew 7:14-14
There is no such thing as a neutral or luke-warm Christian.
It means you are going to be unpopular:
John 15:18-21 ESV
“If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said to you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours. But all these things they will do to you on account of my name, because they do not know him who sent me.
Luke 6:22-23 ESV
“Blessed are you when people hate you and when they exclude you and revile you and spurn your name as evil, on account of the Son of Man! Rejoice in that day, and leap for joy, for behold, your reward is great in heaven; for so their fathers did to the prophets.
John 15:25 ESV
But the word that is written in their Law must be fulfilled: ‘They hated me without a cause.’
Luke 10:16 ESV
“The one who hears you hears me, and the one who rejects you rejects me, and the one who rejects me rejects him who sent me.”
I’d rather be popular with God
I no longer care about being popular with people. I don’t know about you, but it makes me tired to constantly worry about what people think, especially when I’m not going to be friends with them for eternity. I’ve found so much more love and glory in the words of the Bible than I ever found with people.
People made me stressed. People made me want to die. People were the reason for my distrust of everyone–including God.
The truth is, the more I read the Bible, the more I realize that those who don’t read the Bible (and that is a MAJORITY of Christians) are off on who God is. I hear a lot of cliches that just aren’t true, and would be found out if people would just read the word.
I’ve decided to put God first, and always protect the truth of the word, not bending its truth in any way. I will trust in God, not in people. I will look for what I need from God, not in people.
I will be strong through God,
not through friends, family, or loved ones.
God is there for us
Psalm 34:17-20 ESV
When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
He Answers Those Who Seek Him
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened”.
Psalm 14: 2
The Lord looks down from heaven on the sons of men to see if there are any who understand, any who seek God.
Psalm 37:4 ESV / 68 helpful votes
Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.
It is hard to wrap this blog up in a conclusive way, because there are so many things I want to write. I am tempted to just not post it and keep writing it later, but the truth is, I will probably forget, or not feel motivated to try and fix it. I just hope you can get something out of my crazy writing, and that you too, will be inspired to read the Bible to find the actual truth, and learn who you are in Christ.
We were not made to serve ourselves. We were made to serve and praise the ONE and only Almighty God of heaven and earth.
If you feel you are not putting God first in your life, please, I beg you, pick up the Word and figure out what you need to do. He is a merciful and forgiving God. He has forgiven me of my MANY faults. Now I have died to the old me, and live on earth as it is in heaven.
I love you all, so SO VERY much. That is why I write this post. If this blog irritates you, or if I lose you as a friend, I’ll be sad to see you go–but I can no longer shove God into a pocket and not let Him shine through me. I have found ultimate joy, and no one can make me throw it away.
God bless you all!!